Memory Banks

There are things I think of changing in myself that when the time comes to change, I find myself unable to. Doing things I want regardless of what people may think is something I am unable to achieve. What people may think has such an impact on my behavior and I cannot seem to shake it. I realized that it may have something to do with both of the culture I was raised in. I live in Africa until I was about six. Status is such a important thing there that what people think has a huge impact on your daily life. It seem sort of barbaric to me that what people think may change your daily life, yes we are social people but we individuals too aren't we? Happy individuals make happy societies. I remember one guy whom someone mentioned how he inappropriately looked at a little girl and from then on he was associated as a pervert. No one could say how he looked at the little girl, no one could say anything except that someone saw him doing so. If you ask anyone, I'm sure no one would be able to say whom saw him. People were very judgmental and I did not remember liking it.
I was also raised in Italy before moving here. There what people think important as well. It is serious that you would not know that there were homeless man in most of Italy. Everyone dresses presentably and the way you act and what you do says a lot about you. Generally, Children are the only ones who get away with doing things outside the norms. Of course there are those who care little if any in all geographic areas but not too many places have individuals be more of themselves that be part of society.

I am always thinking about society but I think it's time to think about self a little more